Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Thankful for each new day

Sunrise the morning of Mom's funeral
This is a picture of the beautiful sunrise I saw on the way to my Mom's funeral.  It just reminds me that His mercies are new every morning!  It has been a little over a month now since she passed and I still cannot believe she is gone.  Dad and I both are struggling with the "what ifs" and I know that we shouldn't even go there.  Sometimes I just cannot get past the thought that her death was my fault because I didn't get her to the doctor.  But I also know with all my heart that God is completely in control - which includes complete control of when my Mom's last day on earth would be.  Grief can be all consuming and overwhelming.  I am just thankful that I have hope that comes only from Christ and I know that I will see my Mom again.

Well this last round of chemo decided to get tough with me, but each day continues to get better.  I am just very ready to get back to feeling "normal" if there is such a thing for me!


Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
   for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
   great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23


  1. Hi Tammy,

    I'm sorry for the loss of your mom. I've been thinking about my mom. I thank God that she was in my life for 51 years. I too felt guilt but we really can not go there. My parents live in Indy. The last time I saw her alive somehow there was a whisper that it may be the last time. I'm a nurse and I feel like I didn't see the signs, that I could have went to the doctor with her and so forth. But, I know she's in God's arms and I will see her in heaven. She was saved the weekend before she had a stroke and did not regain consciousness.

    What I really what to share is that I wear my moms wedding ring too, I didn't ask dad for it until last year. The comfort it has brought me is surreal. I feel like she is with me and watching over me. I'm glad you are wearing your mom's rings because it does bring comfort. I love Mo's note to you on fb.

    Your faith is amazing and I think of you often.
    God is good!!

    Love, Terrie B.

    God gave me a glorious day with mom the day she passed away.

  2. How are your radiation treatments going? IF you need an escape, we are a bit messy up here, but we are usually home! Come on up and bring the kids. I don't think our dirty is truly toxic ;-) If you give me notice, I will try to get rid of the dust bunnies and corral some of the chaos!

    Hugs! You are always in my thoughts!